This is probably going to be a long post, and it won't contain pictures. :( So, I apologize for that in advance, and if you bear with me through it...bless your heart!
I have been giving a lot of thought lately to what I want out of my life, and what role does my computer play in that. I feel like the internet is slowly taking over my life...it's changing how I parent, how I craft, how I housekeep, how I wife...and not always in a positive way.
When I began this blog it was because I felt like the abundance of sewing/crafting I was doing didn't really have a place on my personal, family blog. Family goes there for pictures of the kiddos. So, this blog began as a way of sharing/journaling about my creative ventures. Then I had the "brilliant" idea to start a business. I quickly learned that while I enjoy sewing for myself, family, and friends...I didn't really enjoy spending the little free time I have creating for other sweet people. My time is just too precious to me, and it wasn't an addition to my daily life I had to have. So, I closed up shop.
Then my blog morphed into trying to grow my audience. Sometimes it's hard to write without knowing anyone is reading. So I did some giveaways and asked people in return to follow my blog. Do those people really follow it? Probably not. As I follow other popular sewing blogs I realize I don't necessarily want the notoriety and pressure that comes with that. I want to create on my time schedule without expectations from anyone other than myself. I feel pressure that probably doesn't exist from anyone but myself, but alas...there it is.
Then on top of that there is Facebook and I occasionally hop on Instagram. Those sites become this need for knowing what everyone is up to all of the time. And funnily, I never really needed to know before, and I've decided that I'm content with not knowing. This world wide web has me trapped in it's sticky web, and I spend more time surfing Facebook, flickr, Pinterest, and instagram than I do creating. I spend more time collecting ideas than I do following through on my own.
I wish I could say that I could just not look at it. But, that's just not my personality. Hi, I'm Amanda...and I'm an internet junkie. ;) So, what to do? Well, I am returning to blogging for myself...no pressure...post when I feel like I have something of note to say. Not just to slap a picture up there for fear of losing any friendly "followers". Of course...I hope those of you who do follow along will stick around and continue reading and sharing with me. I do enjoy reading your notes and emailing back and forth with y'all. :) I just need to relieve some of my self imposed pressures. I will also be closing The Cozy Pumpkin facebook account. I feel so redundant posting here, there...and everywhere. And I will be paring down my friends list on facebook. This probably doesn't affect most of you, but I'm putting it out there. It's not personal towards "you"...it's not a "hair flip"...it's just for me. So I can take back a little piece of me that I allowed to become stuck in that silky web that is social media.